God of Mountains Topples Walls of Fear

 

"I will lift up my eyes to the hills— from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth." Psalm 121:1

From the breathtaking mountains of Colorado . . . back down to the foothills of Mount Neverest (laundry).  I didn't want to come home.  I wanted to stay there and stare at God's art work all day, every day!



What did I come home to, besides lots of dirty clothes?  A busy autumn schedule, a spiritual battle, and a wall of fear . . . it looms over me. 

• How am I going to ____? 


• What if ____ happens? 


• I don't feel good about ____.   


• Am I going to be able to be ____? 


• Am I ever going to be content with an imperfect life and house?  


• What about my friend's hurts? 


• What if ____ happens to my family?


• What if my dreams for Women On God's Mission are too big? 


• What if I've bitten off too much with my schedule?


• How can I continue to make the 45 minute commute to church 2-3 times per week? 


• Do my goals match God's plans for me? 

Fears like a dripping faucet nag at my heart - that loved ones who do not believe in Jesus, as the Way the Truth and the Life, will lose their opportunity with God. And fears for precious friends facing persecution around the world . . . on and on, the walls of fear could rival the Wall of China.



Thankfully, peace is not inextricably connected with time, place, vacation, God's beautiful creation, nor with anything I do or don't do! C.S. Lewis said, "God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there.  There is no such thing."  Where God is, there is peace.  Even in the midst of hectic real life!  I thank God that He uses these fears to draw me to Himself.  If I had no fear, there would be no need for God. 

"For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father."

Romans 8:15

If I am carrying fears around, I am accepting a "gift" from the father of lies, Satan.  After I lift off the enticing wrapper I drag around a back-breaking, heart-wrenching, rash inducing time bomb.  Through me Satan disrespectfully flaunts a small victory in the face of his and my Creator God, while he designs to do everything he can to destroy me, my family, and any godly influence from my life!  In contrast, our wonderful God sweetly yet powerfully assures, "I have it all under control."  He calms the storms around me, giving me freedom to breathe, freedom to sleep sweetly, and the assurance that He is working on ___ and ___.  God understands!  God cares! 



Are you in a fearful place?  Surgery is scheduled, your biological clock is ticking, you lost your job, your baby has cancer, loved ones are moving away, your house won't sell, your husband is being called up for another tour of duty, you don't know if you are on your way to heaven when you die (see above under Lovely Links to get help), your very life is at stake in a land where there is no freedom of religion . . . whatever it is, Satan would love to tie us up in ropes of fear - he wants to snuff out all of the big dreams that come with following a big God!



Like my Indonesian sister in Christ told me tonight, "I just need to meditate more on His word and draw myself even closer to Him. This cloud of uncertainty and doubt has been a thorn I need to get rid of FAST!" 



And when we are too weak to cast off our fears, He can and He will!  Will you kneel with me right now and commit our fears to God?  He has all the answers we need.  He is the answer.  Pray and watch the walls topple.

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’" Isaiah 41:10

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Just God and Me

"Your words were found, and I ate them, And Your word was to me the joy and rejoicing of my heart; For I am called by Your name, O LORD God of hosts." Jeremiah 15:16

On Saturday I listened to an inspiring Christian woman speaking about godly priorities while cleaning my room.  Later that same day, while I was folding underwear and sorting socks, I heard another famous woman interviewed on a highly revered Christian website.  As her voice streamed through my laptop, my hopes for a meaty message quickly faded.  I was left feeling parched.  Yes, she mentioned God, spoke about prayer as well as other true and good things, but never communicated God's own words.  Most of her words were about her. 



More than any other time in human history, we have countless opportunities to hear and learn from God's Word: radio, television, internet, books, church, CDs, Sunday school, small groups, conferences, magazines, DVDs, blogs, YouTube, email, Facebook, etc.  Certainly there are messages and interviews worth hearing that point us to God.  It takes some work, but we can wade through fluff and find solid biblical teaching.



My concern, as I get to know myself better and listen to others around me, is that we too easily depend on the testimonies of other humans.  Before realizing it, my own quality time with God slips away.  Unless the words of others springboard me toward further personal study in my Bible, munching from the crumbs of other people's spiritual meals soon leaves me depleted, hungry. 

"And Jesus said to them, 'I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst.'" John 6:35

If I allow this spiritual malnutrition to continue, my starved self turns to my husband and children, friends and pastor, to feed me, to fill me.  I open my refrigerator, go shopping, listen to music.  My emptiness echoes in my soul, and when women come to me for counsel I give them my helpful opinions and good ideas instead of God's.  At times my family feels the brunt of my ugliness.  I've allowed the potential fruit of the Spirit to wilt and rot.  Then finally, after the damage has been done, I end up where I should've been in the beginning: on my knees and in His Word.

Do you have a daily quiet time with God alone?  I understand, it can feel nearly impossible at times with the busyness of life.  Do you enjoy listening to Christian radio but sometimes let that take place of your quiet time?  What about church - do you tank up on the sermon and small group lesson, hoping it will carry you through your stressful week? 



Dear sister, we need "just God and me" time.  If it means getting up earlier, staying up later, shutting down the computer, getting away from the house for awhile, turning on a good video for our kids, declining an invitation from a friend, hiring a baby sitter . . . we will only be PEACEFUL and USEFUL when we spend time with God.  Alone.

"His (her!) delight is in the law of the Lord, and in His law he (she!) meditates day and night.  He (she!) shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he (she!) does shall prosper." Psalm 1:2-3

Stay tuned for ideas to help you develop a quality daily meeting with God.



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Cry Out to God

"Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Phil. 3:13-14

This morning I had a rare opportunity to read, pray and talk to God alone at a park.  A sweet friend had invited my boys over, and I savored every moment of God and me time.



I've felt drained lately, more so than usual.  The past two years, around this time, we were preparing for our exchange student daughters to come.  From the moment their planes touched down, we were off and running, seemingly non-stop, for two 10+ month intervals.

In June with my Ghanian daughter Ama, just a few days before she left

After two action-packed years, I feel my body and emotions wavering between shock and recovery mode.  And I am grateful for the good memories as I put my feet up, this time blissfully uninvolved with the local high school schedule.  Although, there is a tinge of boredom in the air . . . how do we go back to "normal" after ultra-activity?



God is using this time in my life to help me reevaluate.  As I was sitting at the park enjoying the amazing book Even God Rested: Why It's Okay For Women to Slow Down by Kim Thomas, I was curious when my heart was particularly alert during the chapter about anger.  I listened for God's Spirit to speak to me as I reviewed those who have wronged or misunderstood me: ____ = forgiven, ____= forgiven, and down the list I went.  Then a most unexpected turn of events - I sensed God was showing me that I had not forgiven myself!  And all this time I have been stewing about those other people. 



"Forgive yourself" possibly sounds like a talk-show diagnosis.  Challenged by a wise friend who asked me the biblical basis for this, perhaps it would be better to say I accept God's forgiveness and no longer condemn myself.  In case you are interested, here are some thoughts we discussed:

• Colossians 3:13 - "Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye," . . . The Greek root word "heautou" (one another) refers not only to others, but also to ourselves.


• Berating myself for past failures and sins has only prevented me from living in God's forgiveness/being fully who God wants me to be. Living spiritually is seeing myself through God's eyes: Sinful, yet FORGIVEN. Therefore, it is my own pride and stubbornness not likewise to forgive what God has already forgiven.  


• Hebrews 9:14 - "...how much more shall the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered Himself without spot to God, cleanse your conscience from dead works to serve the living God?" 


• Ephesians 4:32 - "And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you."  Even though I am a sinner, God gives me the choice to forgive or not forgive other sinners.  Do you think Saul/Paul needed to stand with God forgiving himself for his violence against his new brothers and sisters in Christ? At least he probably had to remind himself, when nightmares plagued his conscience, "I stand forgiven in Christ, therefore I shall not live in the past, condemning myself."  I have the privilege of saying with Christ, "Sara, you are forgiven ... go on in God's grace." 


• Romans 8:1,33 - "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit . . . who shall bring a charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies."  GOD justifies - I cannot justify myself nor anyone.  Accepting His full and free forgiveness - it would be disrespectful of His sacrifice to continue to condemn my forgiven self. 


• In John 8:9-12 Jesus tells the woman caught in adultery that He nor any other man condemns her, and then a very important "Go and sin no more."  Why?  "Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life."

It seems to me that holding onto the guilt is connected with pride . . . as if something I can DO will justify myself.  I am thankful that I do not have gigantic baggage - God protected me greatly.  And some of the things I have struggled with are sins of omission or the sad happenstance of not knowing that someone I love was being abused.  "If only I had known, I would've helped them!!" 



Another part is accepting God's sovereignty.  I am just not that big!  He works through our sins and mistakes for good in our lives and in the lives of others - He breathes life into dust and brings the dead to life.  Hallelujah!   



Tonight, while all this was soaking in, and right after I shared with Tim the release God gave me today, I was contacted by one of the people on my forgiven list.  It was like a bright cherry on top of a sundae, reminding me that God can open channels which once seemed impenetrable. Thank You, God, for working faithfully and patiently with Your children!



If you are in a place of exhaustion, confusion, or just plain needing a recharge, I highly recommend Kim's book.  And as soon as you can, cry out to God and go to a quiet place, prepared to listen to Him.  What you think may be the reason for your struggle may be completely opposite of what God is trying to teach you.



I'd like to close with something my wonderful friend Kay gave me yesterday: "Psalm 23:2. He doesn't LET us lie down in green pastures because we usually don't do that of our free will (we're too busy). So He makes us lie down. So thankful He does that for us. THEN, after He does that, He leads us to the quiet water and THEN He refreshes our soul. "

I Can't Believe It's Over!

We have one day left with our daughter Ama.  She leaves us on Tuesday . . . I can't believe the year is over!



Ama isn't a blood relative, but she has has lived with us for over ten months.  She's seen us at our best and our worst!  Awhile back, when Josh asked if she was ever a baby in my tummy, I replied, "No, she is the daughter of my heart."  Both she and Amira, who lived with us last school year, are so dear to me.  I am blessed to be their American mom! 



[Ama, my fellow woman on God's mission just came into the kitchen looking for her camera. "The writing juices are flowing," she observed, as she breezed past me.  After she explained her mission and we both said a prayer, she left to continue searching in her room.  I'm really going to miss praying with her.]



There were moments this past year when Ama and I felt like giving up.  But, God didn't let us.  He faithfully gave us the strength we needed to grow through the challenges, produce fruit for His glory, and to end the year well.  He has given us the victory!



Ama will adjust quickly to her culture, but she will always be part of our family.  And I know that if I ever have the opportunity to visit Ghana (and I'm fully planning to go, if God and Tim will allow me!), I will find that I have a home and family there as well.



As we finish this two year journey of hosting exchange students, I am filled to overflowing with ...

• memories, LOTS of memories


• humble thankfulness for the lessons I've learned


• gratitude to God for His faithfulness 


• joy when I remember the consistent encouragement, love, and prayers of friends and family


• the fruit and growth God has cultivated in my life through amazing experiences


• the gift of love I've received from two beautiful young women who are now permanently part of my heart and life

After the dust settles, I will tell you more about hosting exchange students; I feel like I could write a book!  For now, please reflect with me with thanksgiving to God for all that He has done!  Ama and I pray that God will continue to work in and through us as we part ways.  Ama, my precious sister in Christ, has already enthusiastically agreed to be the Representative and Coordinator for the African Branch of Women On God's Mission! :) 

"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen."  Ephesians 3:20-21

God Appointments Are the Best Kind

This picture was taken a couple weeks after we met, when Melody invited us to her daughter's first birthday party.  What fun!  We are so thankful God led us to meet that day at the park.

"Who is to say that God cannot work at the grocery store, the mall, and the park?  And who can imagine that God would not lead His children to usual places to encourage or to be encouraged in His name?  His mission field is everywhere." - S.S. 

We are extremely blessed to live near Amish country.  Every few months we pack a lunch, load up the van, and head over to enjoy the countryside and culinary treasures.



The shops, complete with horse and buggy parking spots, gas lit aisles, and helpful women with German accents who are dressed in a rainbow of colors - all made from the same pattern, never cease to delight us.  While we hold a different view of God and the Bible from most Amish people, we respect these quiet folks who keep their convictions and traditions alive.



It is a pleasure to acquire healthy food at an affordable cost for my family, as well as less healthy treats like sorghum frosted cookies and pecan sticky rolls. But, today we found an even sweeter treat I'd like to tell you about.



Our household hasn't seen an oat grain for a couple of weeks.  And we all greatly miss our comforting breakfast food.  Before leaving for work this morning, Tim removed every speck of doubt from my mind, strongly encouraging me to venture back to Amish country to replenish our supply. 



I began to question the plan, however, as I talked to God through several interruptions which clogged my way. A friend whom I felt was meant to go along wasn't responding to my messages, no one could find the checkbook, and we were getting a late start.  All in all I felt like I was groping in the dark.  But, we had a mission to accomplish (to retrieve oatmeal, and much more).  At last we were on our way, checkbookless, which means I didn't have enough cash to get everything on our list as well as items requested by two of our neighbors.  Sigh.  I despise being unprepared.  Amish stores don't take credit cards!



The oatmeal store was super busy, so we toodled down to the scratch and dent store (where fancy items nearing expiration sell for one fourth their regular price).  We found some unique items and healthy canned goods, stocked up on condiments for our upcoming BBQ, grabbed a handful of ooo-la-la nutrition-deficient snacks, and dropped our jaws as usual when the checker announced the low price. 



Still, there would not be enough cash for the other store.  So I headed a few miles into town to hopefully get cash back at the General Store.  Nope - they sent me across the street to the bank.  Finally, after a quick meeting with an ATM machine, we had the needed funds. 



Lunch time already?  We walked about seventy-five steps to the locally popular bakery/deli for a quick bite.  As it came into view, warm memories made my heart smile.  One year ago we had met my sister there for a farewell luncheon before Amira, our Filipina exchange student/daughter/sister, returned to her home in the Philippines.  That day everything had been just right.  But, today the prices seemed higher, and it felt stuffy inside.  It just wasn't right, so I turned around and headed back to the van.  We swung by Subway to pick up a sandwich and made our way over to the park.  Little did we know that God was directing us to our next appointment.



When we got there, another mom and her two boys were playing, while a cute red cheeked, curly headed baby gurgled joyfully near the sandbox.  Soon the four boys were having fun and the friendly lady and I began to talk.



In a nutshell, we found out that we are both Christians, and she and her husband have been looking for a good church.  She was so happy to hear about our church, just a few miles from their home, and wanted to know more. 



We also found out our shared interest in nutrition, which led to fun topics about food, cooking, and organic farms.  She was on her way to pick up their weekly supply of milk, eggs, butter, and grass-fed beef.  Before we knew it, we were following our new friends five miles down the road to meet a sweet farmer's wife woman named Clara.  Six of her adorable boys met us by the barn.  After buying some yummy food, my boys and I got to meet some goats, pigs, kittens, dogs, cows, and a horse that was born just this morning.  Priceless!



Before leaving I bubbled out to my two new friends, "God is good!"  And they both gave me a knowing smile.  God not only gave me two new friends and a chance to encourage them today - He also lifted my heart through these women, gave me a mission to share my church with a searching family, showed me that He can work through my jumbled up plans, gave my boys a wonderful farm experience, and directed me to a healthy food resource.  I returned home feeling so blessed!



God appointments are the best kind.  I've learned that praying before and during shopping trips isn't silly - it can lead to unexpected missions of God's leading.  And what a comfort to know that He can make good things happen despite a misplaced checkbook, a slow start, lack of planning, and diverted lunch plans.  Let's not look at "running errands" as simply mundane.  God has big plans for us and for the people we are going to meet. 

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,

Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth,

So are My ways higher than your ways,

And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

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Push the Pause Button: Taking Time to Evaluate

At this very moment I am enjoying a rare moment of bliss.  My laptop, Bible, calendar and I are sitting at a local coffee shop, in an air conditioned room with, ironically, a cozy fireplace flickering nearby.  It is doing it's job well, relaxing me while I sip a blueberry Italian soda, nibble an M & M cookie, and reflect on life.  Yes, I'm spoiled.  A whole pack of thank you notes wouldn't be enough to thank my sweet husband.



It is a break, yes.  But, it is also a work appointment.  As a wife and mother I take my job very seriously.  And sometimes I need to get away from the workplace I love to renew my perspective.



As a stay-at-home wife, homeschooling mom, host mom, writer, daughter, friend, and growing child of God, I must take time to pray, evaluate, and plan for coming days.  When I was single I needed to do the same thing.  It was tedious to face life's ups and downs alone, besides being responsible for everything. 

We all need TIME to REFOCUS.

Here are some questions to help us check our path as we push the pause button:



1.  God - Is God still a priority in my life?  If so, what is the evidence?  When is the last time I was truly abiding in Him?  Have I poured my heart out to Him today?  How many times a day do I think about Him?  Do people know that I am His?



2.  Myself: God's Temple - Is my heart soft or hard?  Am I where God wants me to be?  Do I need help?  If so, am I asking for help?  Am I a thankful person?  Am I taking care of my spirit, mind, emotions, and body?  Am I doing ____ for God's glory or mine?  Are my goals in life reasonable or am I constantly defeated by unrealistic expectations?



3.  Others: Eternal Souls - Who has God given to me as priority relationships to help?  Am I putting them first?  Am I doing my best to help them in their walk with God?  Do I pray as much for others as I pray for myself?  Do I need to change my schedule to make more time for others?  Am I using my influence for good in my home, neighborhood, church, community, and beyond?



4.  My Home: God's Embassy - Do I have too much stuff in my home?  Is taking care of things weighing me down and sapping energy better used elsewhere?  What do I need to get rid of?  How often do I have people over?  Is my home a refuge for my family?  Is my home a God-place?  Am I clinging too tightly to things?  Is my house a place of peace and joy?



5.  My Schedule: My Soul Test -  What does my schedule say about me?  About my view of God?  Is it too packed or do I need to add some things to use my time wisely?  What is causing me the most stress?  What about it is stressful?  How much time do I spend online every day? What is the first thing I'd like to remove from my schedule?  Why?  Am I dwelling in the past or future instead of today?

Jesus told us what our priorities should be ...

"Jesus said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’On these two commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets.” Matthew 22:37-40



^"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." Matthew 6:33



"Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:1-2



Blessings abound in us because we are daughters of the King.  Whether we are single, married, with or without kids, an empty-nester, a grandmother, or are standing at the end of life on earth, God wants to help us live with His heart.  All we need to do is ask Him! 

Be Thou My Vision

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;

Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.

Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,

Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;

I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;

Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;

Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;

Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;

Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:

Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,

Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:

Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,

High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,

May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!

Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,

Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all. 

- Forgaill

Do You Need a Makeover?

There is an old street near our library, adjacent to the town square, that still has its original bricks. They must have been solid and attractive years ago, but these days the gigantic rivulets, careening potholes, and jagged edges only seem to be capable of rattling my brain and nerves.  I almost feel guilty taking an alternate route, because I absolutely appreciate the idea of treasuring our past and keeping history alive.  However, there comes a time when what was useful no longer is useful.  Improvements need to be made. 

As I was riding the waves on the old brick road last night, an image came into my mind of a woman beyond her teenage years, trying to look and act as if she still is a teenager.  Have you seen her? Instead of convincing us she is young, we find ourselves feeling a little bit embarrassed for her. The young look used to be quaint, but it doesn't work for her anymore.

What Is Beautiful?

Some of the most beautiful women I know are far beyond "29 and holding"! They choose cheerful, modest clothing; avoiding too tight, too short, too low, unnatural make-up, and pigtails.  Their communication is filled with grace, humor, dignity and humility.  They keep a style that fits their personality and is becoming to them, somehow reaching a balance of drawing people to them without bringing too much attention to self.  If I could put it in a nutshell . . .

•  They are confident in God's love for them.


•  They are secure in God's grace which supercedes their sin.


•  They are in love with God more than anything or anyone else.


•  They love others with Christ's love.

They aren't perfect.  Even mature women struggle with "the uglies" - physical, emotional, and spiritual battles which affect their inner and outer beauty.  The difference is that they have learned to focus on Christ, the One whose opinion really matters.

^"When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love." I Corinthians 13:11, 13

God's Plan For Our Beauty

God is patiently calling us, drawing us, loving us.  He wants us to receive His free gift of salvation.  He then chips away at the ugly sin in our lives, uncovering the masterpiece He's had in mind all along.  If we are willing, He will make us more useful and more beautiful for Him.



When I look at a picture of myself from twenty-five years ago, I see a shy teenage girl, wearing a pastel plaid blouse and a string of white beads.  "Who is that?"  It seems like a lifetime ago.  Do you think I would look silly wearing the same outfit and acting like a fifteen-year-old at age thirty-nine?  Yes, of course.



Yet, spiritually speaking, when my spiritual birthday comes around every April (see My Testimony to find out more), I am humbled and ashamed that I am not more mature in my faith.  My heart cries out, God help me not to be carried away by every emotion and circumstance - help me be strong and mature in who You are, thus who I am in Your eyes.


What about you?  Are you "acting your age" physically, emotionally, and spiritually? 



1.  Physically . . .  Do you need to make a trip to donate old clothes, calling in a friend with the "dressing gene" to help you build a new wardrobe?  Shopping for bargains takes practice.  And sometimes you need to spend a little more money to invest in an outfit that becomes you.  We don't need a closet full!  We just need a few outfits that work well.



2.  Emotionally . . .  Are you holding onto habits that are pulling you down, keeping you from being the best you can be for God?  Are there some hurts you need to forgive and fears to need to forsake?  God is waiting to help you.



3.  Spiritually . . .  Compared to one year ago, are you more like Christ?  Are you more patient?  Are you less critical of others?  Do you run to people or God first?  Are you encouraging the faith of those around you, even if they are at a different place of growth than you? 



These are tough questions, but there is no need to fret.  Spirituality isn't some grand robe of accomplishment you earn when you reach certain level of faith - it is the direction you are going.  Are you going toward God or away from Him?


I would like to look better, to be sure.  But, if I were offered a free makeover, I would worry that the person "remaking" me would turn me into someone who doesn't reflect my personality and preferences. I might hate my new look, be confused about my identity, not be able to maintain the new regimen, or get a big head about my cuteness! 



While I continue to try to keep my outward appearance fresh and current, I usually choose to invest more energy in getting to know my Creator.  He specializes in spiritual makeovers.  And His sense of style is perfect.

"Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, but a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised." Proverbs 31:30

 

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How To Get Better ZZZzzzzs

Do you have trouble sleeping peacefully through the night like I do?  For me the cause can be a busy mind, not wanting to slow down (party time!), worries, or a physical ailment.  I know this problem can either wear and grind, tempting me to whine and grouch at my family.  Or, it can draw me to God in prayerful dependence.

God has a purpose in sleeplessness and restlessness.  That purpose is greater than our need for sleep.  One of my favorite poets, George Herbert (1593-1633), imagined what may have occured when the triune God planned our creation.  I love this ancient poem:

The Pulley

When God at first made man, having a glasse of blessings standing by;

Let us (said he) poure on him all we can:

Let the worlds riches, which dispersed lie,

Contract into a span.

So strength first made a way;

Then beautie flow'd, then wisdome, honor, pleasure:

When almost all was out, God made a stay,

Perceiving that alone of all his treasure

Rest in the bottome lay.

For if I should (said he)

Bestow this jewell also on my creature,

He would adore my gifts in stead of me,

And rest in Nature, not the God of Nature:

So both should losers be.

Yet let him keep the rest,

But keep them with repining restlessnesse:

Let him be rich and wearie, that at least,

If goodnesse leade him not,  yet wearienesse

May tosse him to my breast.

George Herbert, 1633

There are many practical ideas to help one sleep better.  I'd love to hear what works for you! Here are a few I've picked up along the way:

Don'ts

- Don't eat after 7 p.m.

- Don't be too active just before you need to sleep (walking or stretching is okay).

- Don't eat dairy products late - they take at least 4 hours to digest.



Do's

- Ask God to relax your mind and help you sleep.

- Turn off the TV and computer at least one hour before bed time.

- Exercise (earlier in the day)

- Keep your room organized and beautiful = a restful oasis.

- An idea from my Dad: beware of pride - your ideas aren't so important that they can't wait until tomorrow. :)

- For a mind that won't slow down, listen to the radio on low volume all night.

- Have a regular bed time, and don't deviate from it more than 30 minutes on the weekend.

- Read or do something that relaxes you, saving a Bible verse for just before you nod off.

- Try lettuce tea.  Pour a cup of boiling hot water over a handful of lettuce in a mug, and let it steep for 30 minutes.  I've tried this once, and it was amazing how it relaxed me.  One of my friends quipped, "It worked for Peter Rabbit!"

- Journal before bed.  This especially helps me if I direct my entry to God, telling His all that's on my heart.

- Pray down your mental list of needs, remembering not just your needs but the needs of others.

- To relieve your mind, keep a notepad next to your bed to jot down thoughts.

- Quote Bible verses you've memorized.

- List your blessings by going through the alphabet, or list characteristics of God and thank Him for Who He is: Almighty, Beautiful Savior, Counselor ...

Rest isn't a right - it's a gift.  Let "The Pulley" of restlessness draw you to God.

"I will both lie down in peace, and sleep; For You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety."  Psalm 4:8

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Obstacle to Comfort - George Mueller: Movie Review



As a pre-teen, one biography caught my attention more than the others: George Mueller -man of faith, founder of orphanages, godly example.  Now as an adult, parent, and teacher, this man continues to inspire and challenge my faith.  We had the privilege of watching a video about his life last night.  I highly recommend it.  Excerpt from the website (link found below):

Obstacle to Comfort is a 55-minute video on the life of George Muller of Bristol.  The man became a legend in his own generation.  He was the builder of schools, a supporter of missions and a father to some 10,000 orphans.  The amazing issue of his life does not lie in what he did, but in how he accomplished it.  

He refused to inform anybody concerning his needs, mentioning them only to God, in private, on his knees. 

My grade for Obstacle to Comfort ...



Availablilty = C

It may be difficult to track down.  We found ours at our home school assistance program library.  Finding it will be well worth the effort.  I found one used on http://www.amazon.com/ for $2.99.  Huge difference from http://www.half.com/ at over $21.  It wasn't on Netflix.



Information Resource = A+

This video was excellent in describing George Mueller's background, his conversion, the four most influencial people in his life, how he became a man of prayer, why he never wanted a salary, his pioneer work in founding orphanages ... all of this and more upon a clear backdrop describing the current events of his day.  I especially appreciated hearing statistics relating what happened to the orphans under his care after they grew up.



Knowledge and Sincerity of Host = A+

It is hosted by an older gentleman who clearly loves this man who has greatly impacted his life and ministry.  His hands tremble, so he moves them a lot, but I didn't find it too distracting.  On the contrary, I was touched that he was determined to make the film regardless of physical issues.



Quality of Film Production = B- 

Not terrible for a low budget 15 year old film, but it is slow compared to modern flashy media.  Not a big deal.



Spiritual Elements = A

This story is a testament to God's grace before salvation, at salvation, and beyond.  There is no possible way that all the answers to prayers and amazing provision were merely coincidence.  Clearly God worked in and through this humble man.  I learned that during the blitz of WWII, when Hitler caused numerous deadly attacks on London, many bombs fell around the Mueller campus.  And people would run to the buildings of Mr. Mueller's orphanage instead of to storm shelters.  When asked why they would take that risk, they replied, "We know God is here."  None of the orphan houses, schools or offices were ever harmed.



Story Substance = A+

This true story of faith was illuminated by numerous photos and location visits.  I was moved by seeing faces of the children he helped, the orphanages and schools built through prayer, and photos of the the man himself.  Dr. Connolly takes viewers to visit a man still connected to the Mueller organization, who lovingly untucks Pastor Mueller's personal record books from a safe, showing us his very first book, introducting us to his first orphan.  First of thousands.



Review Summary:

Availablilty = C

Information Resource = A+

Knowledge and Sincerity of Host = A+

Quality of Film Production = B- 

Spiritual Elements = A

Story Substance = A+



Overall Grade = A-



http://prayerfoundation.org/movies/movie_review_obstacle_to_comfort_george_muller.htm

Don't Stop Praying

This week our theme at Skinner Academy is "Call Me!"  We've had lessons about how to use the phone, reviewing our phone number, and talking a lot about prayer.  It's been super fun and super challenging!  Our memory verse is short and to the point:

"Pray without ceasing."  I Thessalonians 5:17

Pray without stopping!  Don't stop!  Never stop!  Pray all day!  Based on that verse, here are some places the boys and I decided we could and should pray:

• When we wake up in the morning



• Before meals



• After meals



• During meals



• In the van



• At the store



• At a restaurant



• When we have a bad dream



• When we can't sleep



• At the library



• In the bathroom



• Making breakfast/lunch/supper



• Doing laundry



• Before a long trip



• In a boat



• While swimming



• In school



• Sweeping the floor



• At church



• Before we fall asleep at night

We found that the list can get most interesting (and sometimes kindof yucky ... like when we're throwing up)!  But it's true.  God wants to hear from us at all times in all places.  If you're like us, we pray before meals, during our quiet time with God, at church, and when we want something or are in trouble.  Sadly, most of our praying is self-centered and locked into habitual times, not nearly qualifying as praying without stopping.



God knows that we have a hard time focusing on Him; we need to talk to Him all the time so we keep our vision clear and our relationship with Him strong.  We can access Facebook and other social networks 24/7 and most of us have a phone with us at all times.  I wonder.  Does that steal from our intimacy with God?   I know it steals from some of the closeness of some marriages, so it must hurt God as well.



Also, we must not give up praying long-term for prayer requests.  After the diagnosis, accident, request, appointment, lay-off or deployment we must remember to continue to pray!



Challenge:  Take one day and try to put this verse into practice.  Pray all the time, everywhere, without stopping.  I've never done this before to this extent, but I am going to try to do it today.  I'm going to pray for you right now, dear reader.  I hope you have a great praying-through-the-day day!  :)





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Cherish Today

"So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90:12

We've all heard catchy little phrases like, "Enjoy today - it's a gift.  That's why it's called the present!" (source unknown).  Each day we get a little older, and hopefully wiser, as we continually open up and share the gift of life we've been given. 

In 2012 I am scheduled to turn 40.  This month my sister will become a gorgeous 50, and later in the year, my mom a beautiful 80.  We've talked about how we should celebrate: dinner out, a Caribbean cruise, a trip to Hawaii ... it's fun to dream!  We really should celebrate the gift of life and our good God who gave it to us.

I admit it.  I'm struggling a bit with turning 40.  It sounds old, and I don't want to be old.  Well, I do want to be mature in wisdom and experience ... but physically, give me back my 20s!  I was telling a friend the other day that the best thing about growing older is looking back at how God has worked through circumstances for good ... Romans 8:28 is really true.  Not that I doubted it, but it's a blessing to see it ring true in real life.  God is faithful!  God loves me!  God has a plan for me!

Lately I've spent time with someone who has the habit of wishing she were somewhere else.  When it's almost the holidays, she can't wait for a break.  When she gets there, she seems miserable, longing to get back to normal.  At our house we call this being an Eeyore.  Well, I gave this friend a pretty little sign for Christmas that says, "Cherish today."  I was astounded when she asked me, "Why should I cherish today?  Why shouldn't I look forward to the future?" 

Missionary to Ecuador and martyr Jim Elliot said, "Wherever you are, be all there. Live to the hilt every situation you believe to be the will of God.”  Jim's insight challenges me to cherish today and my God-given mission.  Instead, I often find myself whining quietly or out loud about my circumstances.  It is usually when I hear about trials other people are going through that I stop complaining and start thanking.

God treasures our thankfulness.  At times life is so hard, and God knows that it can take a tremendous amount of effort to say, "Thank you."  Sometimes in our pain we can ask God, "Please help me to be thankful for what You are allowing in my life."  After all Christ has done for us, we can make the sacrifice of joy, and with determination, "I will ... I will..." praise Him.

"And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the LORD."  Psalm 27:6

In Luke 12 we read about a man who had laid up for years to take his ease in retirement.  Just as he was preparing to party, God told him he had reached the end of his days and he'd better prepare to die. What catches my attention is the end of verse 21:

"But God said to him, ‘Fool! This night your soul will be required of you; then whose will those things be which you have provided?’ 'So is he who lays up treasure for himself, and is not rich toward God.'" (italics mine)

I want to cherish today, and the only way I can do that is to live "rich toward God."  As I spend time with God in His Word and talk to Him in reliance throughout my day, I will have the correct focus.  And even when I don't feel like I have the strength to turn to God, He will hear my cry and come to my aid.  And yes, we as God's children have a lot to look forward to!  One day there will be no more tears, no more pain, no more aging, no more sin, and no more death.  God has given us a mission and a future - what a privilege.  Forty?  Bring it on!

 

More verses about contentment...

Let your conduct be without covetousness; and be content with what you have: for He has said, I will never leave you, nor forsake you. – Hebrews 13:5



A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance: but by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken. The heart of him that has understanding seeks knowledge: but the mouth of fools feeds on foolishness. All the days of the afflicted are evil: but he that is of a merry heart has a continual feast. Better is a little with the fear of Yahweh than great treasure with trouble. – Proverbs 15:13-16



A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy is rottenness to the bones. – Proverbs 14:30



But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain that we can carry nothing out. – 1Timothy 6:6-7



Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatever state I am in to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: everywhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. – Philippians 4:11-13





Suggested reading: One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp





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Chocolaty Choices

One chilly winter morning during college, my slightly dramatic single friend Wendy approached me with a sheepish grin:  “Last night I snuggled up in front of a cozy fireplace with a tall, dark, and handsome (gulp?) ........... mug of hot chocolate!"



My guess is that right now some my single friends are dreaming of someone to snuggle with in front of a fire, and a few married friends are longing for their husbands to take time to build a cozy fire, without being asked, inviting them to share some hot cocoa with them (minus the children).  To clarify misleading lies touting unending bliss - being married, even to a growing Christian, is a huge challenge (ask my husband!).  But, there are some parts which are quite lovely... 



Tim knows I love a fire in the fireplace, but he wants to keep firewood for emergencies and doesn't enjoy making fires, so it's a rare occurance.  On New Year's Eve he brightened my night by building a fire!  After company left and the children were in bed, we sat in front of the fire sipping hot cocoa.  My tired, hardworking husband stayed awake long enough to hear me say, “This is a dream come true.  How about for you?” “I suppose it is,” he thoughtfully commented, no doubt reflecting back to his lonely single years, again giving thanks to God for me.  I knew he was happy to be with me, as I was with him.  And we shared the unspoken confidence that no matter what happens in 2012, God will help us face it together.



To Resolve or Not Resolve?

There is the intriguing matter of "New Year's Resolutions," which is always a curious little option for small talk at holiday gatherings.  When asked at a New Year's Eve party, one of our friends declared that in 2012 he was resolved to get a second home in Tahiti.  With an equally vivid imagination, I eagerly inquired, "Will it be all right if we visit you?"  Terrific!  I already had my dream vacation planned for the year.



As January 1st approached, I had to deal with the serious business of whether or not I should make a resolution for myself.  My first choice: "I resolve to eat chocolate every day of 2012."  Yes!  That is one I can keep.  It might be tough, but I was willing to take the risk. 



Then I thought, maybe I should pray about this.  I don't mean to become "holier-than-thou" on you.  But, if I am going to commit to something, on the first day of the year or any day, I'd better ask my Leader, God Himself, for His opinion on the matter.  Actually, God's Word has instruction we need to consider regarding making promises and vows (see Deuteronomy 23:21 and James 5:12).  God takes our words seriously.  So should we.



One Word

A couple weeks ago I was challenged by the article "My Spiritual Vocabulary" by Debbie Macomber (Guideposts, January 2012).  Online her article goes by a different title, "Choosing Words to Live By," as adapted from her book One Perfect Word:

http://www.guideposts.org/stories-of-faith/choosing-words-to-live-by



Quoting Debbie, "Each year I choose one word to focus on and live by.  These words have comforted me, challenged me and brought me closer to God.  They have changed me."  A fascinating prospect.  Some of her words have been: hunger, trust, brokenness, prayer, and hope.



A year seemed like a long time to focus on one word, so I contemplated having a word for every month.  It would not be a resolution exactly - more like a helpful tool to make my daily schedule more interesting, more focused.



"Spiritual" Chocolate

In December, Ama (my Ghanian daughter/exchange student) and I talked about how we want to grow spiritually in 2012.  We shared areas we need to work on, or rather depend upon God to help us change.  Then came the idea ...  Ama's favorite store-bought cookies are Oreos, so I used that treat to help us remember the essentials of spiritual growth:



O - Off/On (put off the fleshly choices, put on the Spirit of God and abiding fruit)

R - Rely on God

E - Encourage Each Other

O - Overview (accountability)



Ama was delighted!  We've had fun encouraging and challenging each other daily, "So, how is O.R.E.O. going for you today?" 



Thus my word for January was born: OFF (the first "O" in "O.R.E.O.").  I'm afraid Tim thought I was OFF my rocker when I told him about it.  But, as soon as I explained, he seemed to appreciate the plan.  Next month it's going to be ON, then RELY, and maybe for April - June I'll go with GOD, ENCOURAGE and OTHERS. 



My OFFering

Adding this creative element to my life has been refreshing and powerful.  Having the word OFF on my mind daily has helped me when I've wanted to eat too much, found selfish motives taking over, or noticed pride creeping in.  It's also benefited my Bible study, journaling, and prayer time.



In Luke 5 Jesus told Simon Peter to put OFF human perceptions, directing him to re-attempt fishing after a night of failure.   When the men returned with two boats ready to sink due to the colossal intake of fish, they realized Jesus was no mere man.  Simon calls Him "Lord," leaving OFF everything to follow Him in pursuit of a new line of work - fishing for men. 



God is helping me put OFF some physical and spiritual weights... 



"Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith ..." Hebrews 12:1-2a



God is teaching me to put OFF my fears...



"For with God nothing will be impossible.” Luke 1:37



I decided not to make any New Year's resolutions this year.  I don't trust myself to keep them perfectly, and for me I think it would be more of a burden than a blessing.  It is, however, my commitment to do my best to keep trusting and obeying the awesome God of my salvation.  My choice to follow Jesus was the most important decision of my life, and it continues on into 2012.  His grace makes it all possible! 



Enough about me ... how about you?  Have you made any resolutions?  God can help you keep them.  Do you need to find a creative idea to refresh your spiritual growth?  I'm praying that your 2012 is getting off to a great start.  Now, if you will please excuse me, I need to sign off and go find some chocolate.

 

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Lemon Wedges and Sugar Packets



Dad and me celebrating his 80th birthday, April 2011

"'... And try Me now in this,' says the LORD of hosts, 'If I will not open for you the windows of heaven and pour out for you such blessing that there will not be room enough to receive it.'"  Malachi 3:10b 

My Dad has the unique habit of making lemonade at restaurants.  He does not order a lemonade, he makes it with the resources available at his table. Typically, a lemon wedge garnish arrives in each water glass, and before the waiter can say, "May I take your order?" he has already grabbed a mini bag of sugar and is intently concocting his chalice of personal refreshment before our very eyes.



A memory I treasure involves a visit with my parents.  We met at a restaurant, and our waitress graciously seated us before delivering water glasses complete with lemony adornments. After sharing an unusual memory from her childhood, our waitress asked if we would like anything else to drink. I tried to look busy with my menu while my Dad smiled at the lady, "I need some sugar, please ... to make lemonade."

Honestly, I can't say that I have ever gotten used to this ritual, even though it has become a family tradition.  I half expected the seven-months-pregnant waitress to toss a meager bag of sweetener my dad's direction with a snear of disgust.  But, no.  My eyes grew wide with wonder as our angelic hostess brought my dad not just one sugar packet, but a bowl full of sugar packets, and in another bowl a veritable mountain of lemon wedges (at least eight)!  Dad was ecstatic while Mom handled her shock in a most gracious manner.



This reminds me of God's lavish lovingkindness toward us.  We eventually get around to asking God for help (sometimes as a last resort).  And what does God do?  Does He toss us a lame little sugar packet with a scowl on His face?  No way!  God delights in meeting every need, heaping upon us His powerful resources and sweet comfort to strengthen us along the way.  All we need to do is ask.  And, of course, the tab is on Him.

P.S.  After the meal, my Dad generously ordered a giant hot fudge sundae for us to share, just to say, "I love you!"  Thanks, Dad - I love you, too!

^"Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive,

that your joy may be full." John 16:24

"Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need." Hebrews 4:16